Time to go personal
For a long time I used this blog for work / industry related posts because a) that was a part of my job and b) when I was writing code I had technical contributions of value to add.
Today, I realized that I would like to blog again. To have a writing outlet. For the last few years I've been working on my MBA / MSF (almost done), moved into management at a huge company (which is my first time), and trying to be a good spouse and parent.
I've used hockey as a physical outlet to disconnect and get to those moments of oneness that we can have when a group joins and focuses on a common objective. I love those moments and I actively look for them. I try to create opportunities for them. To bring the type of people together that can do this.
I finished skating in a hockey tournament today and I am filled with angst as we were unable to achieve this objective. And I have sadly come to the conclusion that I will have to leave this team. My recreational time is too scarce and therefore, very precious. I need a group of people who will play as a team. No hot dogs, no ice hogs. I need everyone to play as hard as they can, to work to have their best game. To put the team first. That did not happen this weekend. I think it's time to move on.
I've been thinking about this for hours now. I will likely think about it for many more. But I think the decision to walk away has been made. The next decision is what to do next.